Walked off to Mass tonight. Emotional.

The priest was great. We connected. I want to get to know this guy.

He talked about the poor; that’s me! Yay he is afflicting the comfortable; about time someone did that.

But then he afflicted me too. What are you willing to do for the Kingdom? Are you willing to do what the Lord wants you to do?

The Lord had been quietly speaking to me about a certain person. There is no real life evidence this person wants me in their life. Just the opposite, as they unfriended me even.

No reason I should believe this person means me anything well right now. But the Lord said: this is your future. Despite all appearances, despite what you can’t see, this is the truth.

And when I received the Eucharist, He brought me that person and rebonded us. Recreated that union we once had.

The Eucharist is the gold standard of a real encounter with Jesus Christ. I really can’t wonder if random experience in random church was the Holy Spirit or not. The Eucharist IS literally Jesus Himself!

So if, when I receive Him, He then also brings me this other person too, then that is a thing. It just is.

This person’s heart is back too, but now somehow his heart and my heart are the same also. This was also done in the Eucharist, again by the same gentle Mother who did it in the first place.

I was terrified; I was hurt. I was not neutral about what happened between us. I was not neutral at all. The Lord said, let me recreate this. It was hard and scary and hurt. But I said yes.

The Communion song was “Make Me A Channel Of Your Peace”. An old favorite. St. Francis of Assisi. It seemed appropriate.

As the last strains of music sounded, I realized I was in the right place, doing the right thing, taking the path forward the Lord wants.

Despite all current appearances, maybe that person will be there with me in church bodily one day.

I am not neutral. I am not neutral at all. ❤