So last night, bunking it with my brother Samson and another friend of ours, I decided I was DONE with the way I had lived my life.

That YES, I had abusers in my life and not EVERYONE is an abuser!

That my conclusion everyone would treat me like CRAP was skewing things to where nice people behaved badly towards me; did not understand why! Many more than one over time!

That REGARDLESS of what people did or didn’t do in the future, this attitude must be REPENTED OF. Whatever in me was doing this had to go, and I asked the Lord to remove it.

I then prayed massive amounts of rain on myself, blessings and an end to “I don’t care.”

I asked, let people be SICK of the tragic life of Phoenix Victor to the point of, I will do something if I have to fly down there and personally hand her cash! I prayed many people would feel this way.

I decided I was worth the avalanche of blessings I would pray on everyone I love and prayed it all on MYSELF.

Jesus is now laughing. Daughter was feeling untrusting, built SKYSCRAPER in case of rain.

Modern skyscraper with all the amenities very good rain shelter, daughter. May not be hurricane proof; you live in Florida now. Cracking up in EVERY possible way hahahahahahaha.

I am praying and finally He is ENOUGH. Trust Me, PLENTY coming hahahahahaha.

Sammy And I Are At Lunch At McDonald’s

Although I have luggage and he has a bag and walking stick, we otherwise look like quite normal people. I was on the computer and he is writing in a journal.

So why did a lady and her kid walk up and hand us a burger and a drink????

This has NEVER HAPPENED!!!

Sammy smiles, hands them over, I start LAUGHING SO HARD.

I had LITERALLY ASKED people WALK UP AND HAND ME STUFF.

They handed it to Sammy who passed it over but SAME DIFFERENCE.

OMG, I said, hahahahahaha, what have I done? What have I prayed into existence????

Sammy is now cracking up too, saying, the lady had a really confused look on her face why am I doing this??????

HAHAHAHAHAHA oh dear Lord Jesus Christ of Nazareth that bus is coming whether I believe in it or not.

The Bus Came And I Did Not Believe In Buses By Then

The morning I left for the airport, so much had gone wrong I no longer believed anything would work out at all, ever again.

I decided the bus wouldn’t come. It would be late; broken down; there would be no bus.

Jesus said the bus will come. I said no Lord, this is me. The bus won’t come because everything goes wrong. I had NO FAITH in buses. Or anything anymore.

SO WHEN THE BUS CAME, Jesus laughed and said, in spite of your COMPLETE DISBELIEF in that bus, it arrived all the same. Your lack of faith didn’t affect the reality of the bus in ANY way.

That day….everything went from step to step and while there were obstacles, there were no stops.

Every bus came and the plane left on time.

I had to catch three planes to get to Tampa and I caught them all. Everything was FINE.

In spite of my opinions about how life was fundamentally rigged to screw me over, life did NOT screw me over and I arrived in Tampa as planned.

So Going Forward

I choose to believe most people are decent human beings.

I choose to believe I have friends and people who care about me.

Time will reveal these people but they exist.

The Lord loves me and He isn’t the only One.