Murmurs in my heart, whispers of familiar voices half heard.

She is getting forgetful. Leaving stuff behind. Losing things and she never lost anything before.

Well older and TBI and….

MORTAL.

Twenty odd years. It will go too fast. She will only be in her seventies when she goes.

I left the place I was staying at today, moved to new place. Did anyone notice?

Completely strange man I guess who was there stopped me today. So you moved out and what now?

Getting used to people addressing me like they know me when I have never met them. I told him I was on my way to new home.

Calm peaceful today. Some rain. Epic pizza for dinner.

Where I left, the desert my once home.

When I left it was blooming. Green literally.

Man is like a breath; his days are like a passing shadow. – Psalm 144:4 BSB.

I feel the shadows. Less life ahead than I have left behind.

I walk, unused to anyone walking in my footsteps, filling them with flowers or dirt or grass or pebbles or whatever.

The other day went to the mall. A girl I was staying with got up, followed me to my bus, sat in front of me on the bus.

I am used to this kind of weirdness and said nothing. When we both got off at the mall, I told her to have a good time.

She didn’t reply. She has never spoken a single word to me.

I greeted her frequently never got a response.

Strange man with hat, he asked for change. I gave him a dollar. He hugged me, said, I love you.

I have talked to him a few times do not know his name even!!!

Sometimes I glimpse myself through others’ eyes I am a tower. That can’t be me, I think. How could they mean me???

I walk on.

Tonight I collapsed a bit, again in ER. Someone has to fix many problems. Maybe I will be here awhile.

Here so briefly grief already time too short.

Flash and gone.