What do you do when it is all dissolving?

The moments when your flesh crumbles; I am just flesh and blood Lord.

I got out of the hospital; I am not even thinking about all that. I can’t. Gotta survive. Will see the docs when I can. I can’t think about it Lord.

Roaming looking for a place to live, my rent money spent and relying on the people handling the matter. Jesus found me somewhere safe at the moment, but I need much much better.

Feeling like a MASSIVE FAILURE; I can’t keep a house, even though I lost this one doing my literal duty, and obeying the law!!!

Who goes to Davis Island, well since I am here maybe I should get this peeing blood thing looked at; you end up admitted to the hospital, and next day you are homeless again????

I lost this home in pursuit of TRUTH, JUSTICE, and THE AMERICAN WAY and am homeless for all that!!!

Setting things up so things can be better; this takes time. Kinda busy dodging bullets if not literal bullets!!

When Crap Hits The Fan You Hit The Beach

I have a policy: when stuff really goes south, I stop and take a mental health day. Time for me. So I don’t crack up, honestly.

Yesterday this Denver, Colorado landlocked girl finally made it to the beach.

Dreaming about the sea for many many years. It seemed impossible. Yesterday parked my butt on white sand. Jesus made it happen. I made it happen.

You have to make stuff happen; it doesn’t happen on its own! Lots of people do not know this.

This Morning

Well last night too. This morning….I discovered I have friends.

Went to a morning breakfast. I knew MANY PEOPLE. People who wanted to hang with me; how are you doing, hi! Sorry to hear about what happened.

Last night a gentleman, I have seen him various places, DIDN’T KNOW HIS NAME, helped me find somewhere to spend the night safely.

This morning I asked him his name. He said, aww you know my name.

NO I DIDN’T. I REALLY DIDN’T. What is your name new friend who I have only seen in public places and who just saved my butt last night????

I was going to shepherd someone back to the place we stayed at; another woman said, I’ve got her. Oh hey Phoenix, good to see you at this breakfast.

For All That Gasping For Air

I have a dinner date I refuse to miss. Chaos? Drama? No way am I letting those stop me. I am meeting some new friends for dinner tonight JUST AS PLANNED.

I breathe. And try not to think about nodule/rare breathing disorder which is why I can no longer live at high altitude, ever again. Heart problems partially blocked kidney HAHAHAHA I continue to breathe.

Where am I going to sleep? ADVENTURE!!!

Suck in a deep breath try not to cry. Last night I did cry; I dissolved in tears.

I am flesh and blood Lord.

Why me??? Don’t ask why. Stop asking why. You started a blog asking why LOOK WHAT HAPPENED THERE.

When Jesus Reaches Out His Hand, Grab It!!!

You may not get another opportunity. The crazy train may only stop in your station ONCE.

Because if you don’t take the train when it comes, these may be the results.

Don’t get stuck in the station. Take the train bound to glory. It may not pass your way twice.