Because I get kicked in the teeth every time. People cannot believe this until they see it actually happen.
The last time I was vulnerable and asked for help, I got a lecture instead. The time before that the person got mad and yelled at me.
They haven’t noticed I haven’t asked for help again.
People don’t understand why I would get suicidal and get unfriended. I came to accept it.
Jephthah's Daughter 