Things are blowing up in my life right now. I am dealing with situations, I cannot even believe people are behaving this way or I am going through what I am going through.
All software continues to misbehave, literally doesn’t matter what the source is or who wrote the code.
I went to the Lord and said I am in such a major jam. I have friends but they are far off, human, struggling with their own problems yet trying to help me too.
I love them all dearly. They are but flesh, like me. Imperfect, limited, prone to failure and error. Like me. Like all of us. Everyone the same.
I feel like a very small mudspeck in a very very large vast universe. A mere blade of grass who has taken on the stars themselves.
Who am I, the single blade of grass a regular lawnmower can destroy tomorrow in an instant, to proclaim lofty things? To talk about constellations?
I said I got into this massive jam following You, Lord. It seems like all forces are conspiring against me. Many ARE, very factually and provably, with real life evidence they are doing so.
I said here I am proclaiming Jesus Christ is the Way, Truth and Life, He is the answer. And yet my own life is massively going to pieces. Why Lord? What is happening?
I praised Him; I surrendered to Him as usual. But I also said, You say You are Love and You love me. This doesn’t look like Love to me!
I don’t feel loved. How can everything be literally blowing up and almost all forces against me, how is this Love????
He says:
Seren, follow My original instructions for this post and write about nukes.
OK Lord Amen.
A Little Background About Nukes
This, first of all, isn’t a commentary about the wisdom or morality of the nuclear arms race other than it factually happened. The Lord doesn’t want me focusing on that issue.
I was personally involved with the nuclear arms race and also knew others who were. I once worked at a nuclear weapons plant. In addition to people I met there, met others along the way who had been in that program.
I literally never had access to classified information. That plant is now a really giant pile of dirt, all roads into it destroyed. I could tell you work anecdotes and what it was like to be onsite. I don’t know anything classified.
I did admin work. I built and ran a database of OSHA incidents and made pretty graphs. Held some other positions. Nothing earthshattering.
I had the minimum clearance necessary to be onsite and nothing else. They were beyond super paranoid about guarding secrets; I didn’t therefore know any.
But it was an incredible experience. It brought me very close to, and in the middle of, the arms race and the aftermath. I therefore developed a lifelong fascination with the processes of nuclear fission and fusion.
Obviously how to build bombs is EXTREMELY restricted info, so I studied nuclear power plants instead.
Chernobyl
This is probably the most infamous nuclear power plant meltdown. The ultimate causes of it were faulty design and human error. People are still visiting the nearby town of Pripyat, which had to be evacuated.
Probably the best, most accurate summary of what happened is here. A far more descriptive summary is here.
The Cliff Notes summary is they misjudged how to adjust the control rods in the nuclear pile due to operator error, and therefore parts of the pile were ejected out of the building into the outside air, which is BAD.
How It Works
Here is a super easy to understand video about control rods and what they do in a nuclear power plant. They are called that because they literally control the nuclear reactions happening in the pile, or core.
The nuclear pile is just another name for the reactor core, which is the mass of uranium or plutonium undergoing fission. This link is a great explanation of how it all works.
Modern nuclear power plants all work off the principle of fission. In many nuclear bombs, there is an additional fusion reaction. They are designed to explode and the additional fusion component greatly multiplies the destructive effect.
Here is a great video explaining fission.
The mechanics involved in actually doing all this are obviously closely guarded secrets, as well as access to nuclear fuels. But these are the principles on which all these things operate.
Hiroshima and Nagasaki
So in World War II, America dropped nuclear bombs on the Japanese cities Hiroshima and Nagasaki. It was devastating and the war ended not long after.
This is why nukes were researched and developed in the first place. It was then discovered you could build power plants using these reactions. Mankind, however, sought nuclear power in the very beginning to harness it for destruction.
Thanks For The Science And History Lesson, Seren. What Is Your Point?
I drew the following conclusions from this info.
- Nuclear reactions, natural or artificial, have one purpose: releasing epic amounts of POWER and ENERGY.
- This can be used CONSTRUCTIVELY or DESTRUCTIVELY.
- Fission involves BOMBARDMENT of an atom to make it SHATTER, releasing ENERGY.
- Fusion involves the BONDING of atoms in a way that OVERCOMES NATURAL FORCES, releasing INCREDIBLE POWER.
- Once you start a reaction, there are CHAIN REACTIONS affecting other atoms. This releases MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF POWER AND ENERGY.
This whole post was inspired by something a dear sister in the Lord sent, about how incredible atomic power is released first and foremost by fission. Fusion comes later as a byproduct of fission.
Fission, meaning, the atom is bombarded with neutrons until it can no longer take this and literally shatters. Releasing epic energy and power.
Oh.
So in my life, I am being bombarded. I won’t go into all the sources as do not need to share the drama. Real life stuff, provable stuff, why are people acting this way? Major medical issues, have paperwork to prove it.
The point isn’t to succeed.
The point is to literally BECOME A STAR.
Christ Alone Is Life
“I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat is planted in the soil and dies, it remains alone. But its death will produce many new kernels–a plentiful harvest of new lives.” ~ John 12:24, NLT.
I have been having convos about the condition of my physical body outside of what I discuss here. The conclusion I have reached is what ultimately happens with that is irrelevant.
Life isn’t the life of my physical body WHICH WILL END. This is why I am ranting against faith healing. Not that I don’t believe in it. I have a whole post stating I am alive miraculously RIGHT NOW!
I object because of the kneejerk assumption the Lord ALWAYS heals; no Christians ever die when CLEARLY they do, and how this invalidation of my real major illnesses makes me feel.
Life is Jesus Christ. Period. To live is Christ; to die is gain.
We are strangers and sojourners on Planet Earth. We get involved with all the crap here and forget Home is elsewhere.
Jesus does love me. He loves me so insanely much He is bombarding me in order to bring about FISSION. Using the passing things of Earth to bring about ETERNAL LIFE.
What is eternal life? It is Him!
And when fission occurs, there will be a chain reaction. Others will be affected; there will be fission in them. They will affect yet others. And so on.
Unleashing The Life Of Christ
What is the point of nuclear reactions? To unleash devastating amounts of POWER and ENERGY. In this case, that power and energy are the Lord’s and SOLELY under His control.
This is not a recipe to wield immense power. Satan thought that was a good idea, to try to usurp the power of God. He is a lot smarter than you.
This worked out very badly for him; he didn’t succeed, despite claiming he did. Others have tried and God smacked them down.
This, I believe, is LIVING UNION with Christ where He is in control. His life, His thoughts, His actions. Life and Love. Jesus the Source, the Creator in Whom dwells all the fullness of God.
“I pray not on behalf of these only, but also for those who believe in Me through their message, that they all may be one. Just as You, Father, are in Me and I am in You, so also may they be one in Us, so the world may believe that You sent Me. The glory that You have given to Me I have given to them, that they may be one just as We are one—I in them and You in Me—that they may be perfected in unity, so that the world may know that You sent Me and loved them as You loved Me.
“Father, I also want those You have given Me to be with Me where I am, so that they may see My glory—the glory You gave Me, for You loved Me before the foundation of the world. Righteous Father, the world did not know You, but I knew You; and these knew that You sent Me. I made your Name known to them, and will continue to make it known, so that the love with which You loved Me may be in them, and I in them.” ~ John 17:20-26, Tree of Life Version.
By definition, only the Lord can accomplish this. My part is simply cooperating with or resisting His grace. This is a God thing from start to finish.
Conclusion
“For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too. If we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation; and if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which you experience when you patiently endure the same sufferings that we suffer. Our hope for you is unshaken, for we know that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in our comfort.
“For we do not want you to be unaware, brothers, of the affliction we experienced in Asia. For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death. But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead. He delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will deliver us again. You also must help us by prayer, so that many will give thanks on our behalf for the blessing granted us through the prayers of many.” ~ 2 Corinthians 1:5-11, ESV.
Amen and amen. All praise, glory and honor be to the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit forever and ever. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
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